The blinking curser & a new year

Happy New Year.

Yes, I recognize that it’s January 23. I get it. I’m behind. I am aware that it’s been 2014 for a few weeks now, but I’m still living in the past — frantically trying to keep up and stay on top of things. I really had impractical expectations for my life from mid-December until … well … until today, really. Although life has been lovely, adventurous, and fun in some expected and unexpected ways, I’m finding that I’m just not quite caught up.

My heart, my life, and my brain are still processing 2013 — a lot went down last year. I’m doing that thing (maybe you do it too) when I have so many many many things to say that I rehearse thoughts and sentences over and over again so I can share the experience with you, but then I get all overwhelmed. I end up saying nothing. I keep it to myself because so much time has passed that the story has lost its luster. Besides…something, someone, someplace has already happened. There’s already a new story to share.

I’ve been staring at the screen of this neglected blog for months; watching an achingly depressing analogy unfold before my eyes. I was too busy, life was moving too fast, and other things were just too important for me to sit down and write.

There was so much to tell but I didn’t have time/take the time to feed words to the blinking curser flashing back at me. Too much to do. I didn’t leave space for me to write the words so I could actually live in the joy of the adventure He was allowing me to experience.

Much of my life — my relationships, my passions, my rest — took a backseat to my job these past few months. As much as I love my job there’s more to me than “Courtney, Cru staff.” And you may say, “Court, I know that!!” And thanks. Thanks for knowing that. I really do appreciate it. But honestly, I lost a bit of myself there for a bit. It was touch and go there for awhile.

I need me to know that there is more to me than this gig on staff. Yes, much of who I am is laboring with this ministry of college students. They are some of the most creative, passionate, real, and courageous people I know — these men and women show me Jesus and they speak so deeply to my soul. I LOVE that I get to see them every day as part of my job. I’m blessed. Truly. But my ministry — the life God has entrusted me with — is more than just them.

It’s my walk with Jesus, my service to the Savior who saved me and gives purpose to my life. It’s my sweet and brilliant husband. It’s the gifts God has given me to write, and create, and design. It’s relationship with friends who don’t live in my city and have known me for years, and it’s relationship with a friend who’s known me for just a few months and is just beginning to see the real story.

That’s my ministry. That’s His ministry. And I confess that I haven’t been the best steward.

So in the spirit of grace, a desire to pursue holiness out of a deep desire to make Him known to the world, and to share the stories with you, here’s a massive, rambling post about all the things that I may or may not finish talking to you about. 

I’ve planned at least 10 posts in my head — on finishing our support and reporting as full-time senior staff this fall, something we’d dreamed of for years; on moving into a house from our tiny apartment (it’s a great story, I’ll tell you eventually); MC’ing a conference, one of the favorite things I’ve done on staff with Cru; the end of the busiest five months of my life (seriously, never been busier); learning more about my emotions and how I’m discovering more about my temperament and why I cry so easily; my youngest brother graduated from college and is signing up for the Army, so many emotions; Christmas and how our life is changing and flowing and how it just felt different this year and I haven’t put my finger on why yet; the craziness and blessings of TCX and how much I love my job; parties in the new house, so many parties, and I’ve loved every moment; coming back to our staff team, only to leave soon after for a sunny, warm and lovely adventure to Los Angeles to visit some very very dear friends and hang out with 400 Jesus-loving Asian Americans who know they were made to be known and make Him known.

That’s the cliff notes version.

I think I’m ready for it now. 2014 is gonna be a good year.

January Prayer Letter

Life has been busy. Life has been going crazy since mid-December! We moved from our apartment into a house we’re renting (super exciting!!), traveled to Minneapolis for Christmas and TCX, came back to Stevens Point briefly before we headed to California for the Epic Conference.

Thank you for your prayers for us, our ministry and our students. We have a blessed life and are incredibly excited for the spring semester.

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November Prayer Letter

It’s November!! Hard to believe how quickly the semester is passing us by. It’s been a busy couple of months but the Lord has been doing so much on campus. Thank you for praying for us, our team, and our students!

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October Prayer Letter

It’s been a busy couple of months — we haven’t even had time to blog more!! Jeepers! We’ll get on that! And this is way late on posting — so sorry you guys!!

It’s been a busy couple of months but the Lord has been doing so much on campus. Thank you for praying for us, our team, and our students!

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September Prayer Letter

It’s been a busy few weeks — we haven’t even had time to blog more!! Jeepers! We’ll get on that!

We just finished our first week on campus and are gearing up for a week of follow-ups, discipleship, and a more regular (hopefully) routine!

Thank you for praying for us, our team, and our students!

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August Prayer Letter

Thank you so much for praying with us!! As of this post we have only $200 in monthly support left to raise to reach our goal of being 100% fully-funded! The Lord has been very good and super faithful and affirming in our call to be on staff with Cru and to continue serving in the central Wisconsin area full-time.

This month we also wanted to share the joys and highlights of our bi-annual staff conference held in Fort Collins, CO on the Colorado State University campus. Not only is it the opportunity for staff all around the US and the world to come together and be reunited, it is also an opportunity to get a birds-eye view of what’s going on with Cru on a national scale.

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